After 3 1/2 years it seems I'm finally free of the mental need to "move the weight" and instead really focus on lifting like a bodybuilder. Meaning, I have stopped caring what my numbers look like in my journal and am now focused on the mind-muscle connection, contraction, time under tension -- i.e., working the target muscle. Don't get me wrong, I gave lip service to it all along, but in my mind, moving the weight was most important. I've reset most of my loads and am progressing them up with my rediscovered philosophy. I'm not sure what drives us down the road I was on, aside from the general ego cause. Having a public journal is both a blessing and a curse. It provides motivation but also gets your focus off sometimes - paying more attention to the numbers then working the muscles like a bodybuilder. Anyway, I'm glad that I've come back to this place and I plan on staying. I'm pretty sure that there are lots of guys on here who struggle with the same thing. Hopefully others can chime in with their experience and someone can be helped.